Hi Alley,
So shocked. What happened? There is nothing I or anyone else can say to make this any better for you, just know we are all thinking of you and if you ever need a friendly ear....well you know the rest.
I have three friends that lost children, all suddenly taken away, one just four weeks ago so I can only imagine how you are feeling. One of my friends lost her daughter suddenly at the age of 9 from an undiagnosed genetic disorder. There was nothing any of us could do to lessen her pain just be there for her. She found talkng about it helped immensely and I can't tell you how many times we listened to her story and cried with her. Perhaps the only advice I can give is lean on your friends, those who are real friends will support you through this and will be there for whatever you need and part of your friendship is you being able to lean on them as well. Don't be afraid to ask for help, you are going through the unimagineable. I wish I could help. Sorry seems so inadequate. Just know you are in my thoughts and prayers. One day you will reach a point where the pain you feel now will be a lot less, just takes time. Just take each day as it comes and it really is a case of putting one foot in front of the other. If you work, then that is good. It can be an escape for you. In times like this your head can be your own worst enemy. Just be kind to yourself and don't expect too much of yourself. There is no pressure on you to be the supermum, superwife, supercoper. Give yourself the time and space to heal. Talk to a psychologist if you need. You did nothing wrong and there is no reason for something like this to happen. It is just fate. To feel gutted and hopeless is normal but if it goes on too long...see your doctor. What you are going through is probably the hardest thing youwill ever face but you will come out the other side, just take baby steps.
Sending you a big cuddle,
Sue xx
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