Hi,
Thank you for the reply and welcome, it's much appreciated. I haven't give up hope yet, I just find this whole Brain Tumor thing so frustrating. The biggest problem I feel is the difference in opinions even with specialists, my nuerosurgeon is defineatly saying it's time to do radiation, so I suppose that's where I'm at.
I've been forever grateful for how far he has got me to date, I suppose I'm just a little selfish here in the fact that I know I have another tough road ahead. I'm a single mum with 3 children, I have a full life, I have 3 horses (which I will say are an inspiration in themselves, besides my children of course)!
Over the past 3 1/2 years they have taken my licence of me several times and being such an independant woman I find each time they do it chips away at my worth....unfortunately I live in an area with poor public transport.
I find that I don't really have people to talk to about this matter at all, my parents are extremely supportive of me, however they are so paranoid that I find I'm the one trying to ignore my problem, my children all cope in different ways and I don't discuss things too much with them. Then there is the people around me that are either in denial or just plain don't want to know, so I do supress alot of my emotions.
Talk about a roller coaster lol, my treatment will have to be done in Sydney and I wonder how I'm going to cope with the Radiation, the daily travelling and my day to day life, however I do know that I'm not the only one in the same position.
I am just so frustrated as all I want to do is live life and I'm naturally scared that the radiation will take even a bit more of me away.
Anyway enough raving....I love your signature and I really do thank you for your time! I will certainly check out the site you recommended.
Cheers Kenobewan
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